Un Peu de Moi, encore

Uma pessoa: Alguém já rodou no exame físico pra tirar carteira de motorista?

Outra pessoa: Não, mas meu tio rodou no psicotécnico. Ele desenhou um homem pelado.

Terceira pessoa: Hein? Mas e se ele quisesse dirigir pelado? Qual o problema? É contra a lei?

Quarta pessoa: Deve ser atentado ao pudor.

Terceira pessoa: Mas se o tio da Outra pessoa for naturalista? Que discriminação.

(conversa vai, conversa vem)

Oitava pessoa: Tá, mas então o tio da Outra pessoa dirige pelado, é isso? Daonde começou essa conversa?

Uma pessoa: Eu só perguntei se alguém já tinha rodado no exame clínico… E daí a Outra pessoa disse que o tio dela rodou no exame psicotécnico… Pelado.

It’s the third attempt to write something about my Christmas.

It was an ordinary, but not that ordinary Christmas holiday. 

I spent some time with my family, really nice things happened, my boyfriend surprised me again, in many points. And I’m really glad for that. He’s the guy that makes me happy. And happy are the times we spend together.

Besides that, I keep rushing on work, got a cold (but I’m better now) and I miss some things, but there’s no point to be sad about that. It will always be something that will make me worry. Always.

And if I don’t write ’til 2007… HAPPY NEW YEAR! COME SOON, 2007! 2007 is the boar year in Chinese Zodiac. And it’s my year.

Estou me sentindo tão imperfeita hoje. Imperfeita e vulnerável. Como se aquela mulher que se faz de forte saísse correndo, com medinho, e deixasse a mulher escondida de cara para o mundo, este olhando, apontando e rindo, e esta, desnuda de sua armadura.

Hoje eu tenho direito de querer um par, um carinho, um alento. Hoje eu quero me sentir em casa, com o meu fiel cão de guarda a proteger a porta desta, para impedir que o mundo me encontre. Hoje eu quero massagem nos pés, uma comida deliciosa com gosto de caseira, de feita com amor. Hoje eu quero cafuné até dormir, deitar minha cabeça em seu peito, sonhar com você. Hoje eu quero poder abrir os olhos e te descobrir velando meu sono. Hoje eu quero beijo, daqueles que só você sabe dar, acariciando meu rosto enquanto nossos lábios se selam. Hoje eu quero fazer planos bobos, sonhar acordada, rir desengonçada. Hoje eu quero sentir aquelas borboletinhas na barriga ao olhar para os teus olhos. Hoje eu quero que tu sorrias para mim e que este sorriso me diga que continuo perfeita. Pelo menos para ti. Que pra ti eu sei que faço diferença. E eu sei que tu sabes como me vestir com a armadura novamente.

Today was supposed to be a good day. Or at least an usual day. But Murphy pointed to me from the sky and showed me his butt.

Update: Today I could use a good hug. Can anyone give me? 

Well, I don’t remember what I put on my 2006 plans. Actually, I remember some of the topics, but it was a huge list…

I haven’t thought about the minor items, but there are main points that I have to achieve accomplish in 2007: 

1. Get my master degree;
2. Pay my notebook;
   
3. Save 6,000 by the end of the year and invest this amount added to the amount I already have;
4. Trace a concrete plan for the next 5 years;
5. Keep my basic budget less than 700,00.

As you’ve noticed, I’m really worried about money. Why? Because I cannot believe that I spend so much money in things that aren’t exactly necessary. I need to understand that I must have money to immigrate AND pay my notebook. I don’t like that fact that I have a big debt with my dad.

When I was choosing my advisor to my master course most of people said "Are you crazy? WHY do you wanna choose HIM as advisor?". I doubted. I thought he was gonna be kind of a monster, hate me, hate everything I do. But I challenged the reason and trusted on my feelings.

And my feelings were right this time. Ok, sometimes, he’s a bit of overreacting, mad about tiny details. But I know it’s for a good final reason. And I doubted again, thinking that the things he was making me do were stupid. And then the reason was wrong again. Successful works were finalized, my work seems successful too. Today I can say that he’s one of the most inteligent men I know. He knows how to make people win. And I know I can win.

It’s our 11th month anniversary. I had an idea of posting, but I thought that it would be better to post it on our 1 year anniversary… If you have diabetics, you’d better stay away from this blog on January 4th.

And now, music!  

I’m Feeling You (Santana ft. Michelle Branch)

Sometimes, I imagine the world without you
But most times, I’m just so happy that I ever found you
It’s a complicated web, that you weave inside my head
So much pleasure with such pain
Hope we always, always stay the same

I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you

You go, and then I can finally breathe in
‘Cause baby I know, in the end you’re never leavin’
Well we’re rarely ever sane, I drive you crazy and you do the same
But your fire fills my soul
And it warms me up like no one knows

‘Cause I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you

[guitar solo]

I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you
Oh I’m feelin’ you

Oh I’m feelin’ the way that you cross my mind
And the way that you save me in the knick of time
Oh I’m feelin’ the way when you walk on by
I feel light, I feel love, I feel butterflies
I feel butterflies